Time flies without us realising it.

What I'm feeling now.. are mixed feelings.

I'm already 33.

Reminiscing the past. Looking at the present.

It's definitely not how I imagined how things would have been.

Countless times have I thought, how things would have been different if I were to go a different path.

But I would be somebody different from who I am today.

I guess we just learn. We just grow. We experience. We become wiser.

It's kinda funny, thinking how much time have passed.

The colleagues that I had. It's already been 8 years since we first met.

The last time I was studying hard for a circular exam. That happened 13 years ago. 

I really wonder.. how things would have been different...

I have grown weak... I feel like I have just been following the flow of fate. 

Am I a living corpse? Zombified?

I don't know. I still try to be good, do good. But I no longer have my strength to try to shape my fate the way I want to.

I wonder who even reads blogs anymore... who even bother to read mine..

I feel as though darkness encased me.

I don't know when I will see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I wonder who else feels the same.

I wonder how the people I am thinking about doing....