It's been a while since my last update.

All I can say is... I'm just trying to survive. For the past 9 years, I have been trying.

I can no longer distinguish if I'm depressed or not. What if the main problem is really me?

I don't know anymore. I have been suppressing my emotions so that I dont break this family apart. I wish that she will only understand me but.. will she ever will?

Ya Allah.. please guide us to whatever is best for us all.


Help...

Men's feeling doesn't matter and that is what I'm sacrificing. I hate this. I may never learn to trust again.

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